My journey began in February of 2015. I remember as if it were yesterday. It was as if I had awoken one morning knowing that my life was about to change, but what I didn’t know was if it would be for the better or for the worst.
Expressing myself the best way that I knew, I opened up my sketchbook and started to draw. I drew flowers, lots, and lots of them. Then I wrote positive affirmations, one after another, day after day. There was a shift in my energy. The sadness and fear that had previously paralyzed my body and mind started to lift.
I began taking control of my own life. I was finally in the driver seat. I had no idea where I was going but it was an exhilarating feeling knowing I was going somewhere and that I was the one in control. How I got to this point, I simply trusted my actions, myself and the Universe. Believing in the possibility that where I ended up or who I had spoken to was all for a reason. I became an observer of my own life. I started to look at things from a broader perspective by really being present in my everyday.
I got really good at stepping outside of my body (not physically but mentally) and looking at life differently. Questioning each experience by wondering what was I supposed to learn from this experience? Through this new method of learning that’s when I realized, I became a student of life.
I joined a yoga studio.
At first, it was nothing more than me showing up for a practice, getting in my exercise and satisfying my need for building my strength. Now, I should tell you, I have been practicing yoga since 2003 and I have never been so connected to it spiritually or even physically than I am right now this present moment. For some reason, I was meant to show up at this studio and flow with this tribe and I am glad I did.
As days, weeks, and months started to go by, I quickly realized that I wanted more out of this experience. With some encouragement from the yoga teachers, I signed up for an inversion workshop. After taking yoga for 13 years not once did I ever try going upside down, other than a downward dog that is.
13 years!!! That’s a really long time of doing the same thing over and over again and getting nowhere further than where I started off.
No wonder why I didn’t expect anything different other than my regular yoga practice that I was so used to. But, and I stress the but here, the minute I made the choice to go beyond my comfort level… I grew.
Never in a million years did I think I was capable of holding myself upside down in a headstand or handstand or even in more unique and unknown poses I didn’t know existed, like a side crow, forward crow or a scorpion.
I grew. And because I grew I started to grow in other areas in my life too, outside of the yoga studio.
I started to hang out with the women in my community that were like-minded and who were going throughout the same struggles as I was.
Finally, I felt like I belonged somewhere.
I could actually talk to a friend and call them a friend. That someone cared for me that same way I cared for them. Friendships are so important. Real good friendships help you grow. Help you become more of who you really are.
My new friends held no judgment. Which allowed me to be more confident in whom I am. The idea of being different or not being able to fit in quickly disappeared.
I started eating healthier and before I knew it, I was hooked. It was like I was feeding my body shots of energy and lots of happy little endorphins.
When my mom and dad arrived home from a month long trip to Mexico, not only did they bring home themselves and presents for my boys, but they brought home with them a few extra pounds around their mid-section. Clearly, they had a great trip, which is good, but, they let food overpower them. Hey, I’m guilty of it too. Who doesn’t love food, right? Well, this dramatic change in them made me want to help them get back on the road to being healthy again.
So, I signed us all (my mom, dad and my husband and I) up at Weight Watchers.
I chose Weight Watchers because when I was a kid my mom had done it before and she was very successful at it, so I figured she should be comfortable with this type of weight loss program. I joined too because, like I said before, who doesn’t love food? And I needed to shed my winter coat that I wore all season long. Plus, summer was fast approaching. I wouldn’t have been able to hide underneath all my bulky sweaters.
Weight Watchers works!
Weight Watchers was such a great experience. Highly recommend if weight loss is part of your transformational journey too. Both my husband and I started getting creative in the kitchen again; the same go-to meals had been kicked to the curb. We pulled recipe after recipe off Pinterest, trying different dish after dish. Oh, how our appreciation for good and healthy food grew. And the best part was we dropped the winter weight and then some.
Here are some of my favourite cookbooks that I swear by:
- Super Fresh: Super Natural, Super Vibrant Vegan Recipes by Jennifer Houston + Ruth Tal
- The Oh She Glows Cookbook: Vegan Recipes To Glow From The Inside Out by Angela Liddon
Had my parents and us, continued to do what we were all doing before we joined weight watchers, we would have continued to have food control us.
We chose to change and we did grow (just not our waistline), our bodies started to heal, we experienced such amazing and satisfying dishes and the best part is we still do. We became more aware of what we put in our bodies and how the food we eat affects our mood, sleep, our system and most importantly our health.
Yes, occasionally we fall off the wagon. We’re human after all. We eat our chips and often find ourselves searching the fridge at the wee hours of the night looking for something yummy to satisfy our tummies. How we conquer that is by not going back to our old ways – we control our food, we don’t let the food control us. Plus, stocking the fridge and cupboards with healthier options help too. We made the time to properly cook our meals, we planned what we were going to eat. We cooked in batches so that we can have go-to meals in a jiffy on nights we didn’t feel like cooking.
But most importantly, the big thing in all of this was we had the support from each other. Just like my new friends at the yoga studio and my new mommy friends supported me in my physical and mental growth.
I found holistic healing or maybe it found me. My first real spiritual awakening began with a rainbow energy healing from one of my new friends. The experience was unlike anything I’ve experienced before. I was told things that I had already known but this time, it all seemed to finally make sense to me. My pain and suffering were all for a reason. They were stepping stones and a part of my life’s path. They were tools to help me “grow” to be who I am to be, which I have always been. I just wasn’t ready to step into my higher self, until now.
This spiritual awakening, lead me to find more ways I can holistically heal my family and myself. I was shortly thereafter introduced to essential oils.
I had some knowledge of them but had no idea they had medicinal purposes. I bought a kit, which came with a diffuser and 10 different therapeutic essential oils and started to explore. And wow. I could write a whole blog post on these amazing oils alone, maybe even several posts. Used as they’re meant to be used they can seriously help your ailments or support your new healthy lifestyle. It’s been one year since using them and I can honestly say I still use them every day. If not on me, on my husband, my boys or even on my dog.
My holistic path didn’t stop at the oils, oh no, my new friends, well they’re pretty freakn’ amazing women and moms. Not only did they introduce me to these magical oils but they also introduced me to Reiki.
What?!? What’s reiki? Yup, that was my reaction, maybe yours too.
I found out quickly that it’s a Japanese energy healing modality. I was beyond intrigued and wanted to learn this Reiki for myself and for my family. So, I went on the hunt to find a reputable Reiki Master and after months of searching, I found Susan McDonald.
Susan taught me level 1 and 2 Reiki. Level 1 is more for yourself and level 2 you become 5 times more attuned and opened in receiving the healing energy. At level 2, I decide to officially become a Reiki healer. In fact, I dedicated a space in my home for clients.
After I started practicing Reiki I wanted to continue to grow in my spiritual awakening. It was almost like an addiction, I craved more and more on the subject. I even took a course in Angel Communications. Yes, there are courses for that! And they’re legit too!!! Well, I’ll speak for the course I took that is. Chris Cuciurean is an amazing teacher, he helped me have the confidence in being and knowing of who and what I am; a clairvoyant, healer, and teacher.
Yes, I am a clairvoyant. I never knew what to label it, my gift that is; the ability to see what is not visible in our 4D world. Once I knew how to put my gift in a box and wrap it up with a pretty little bow, everything started to come together and flashbacks of my childhood resurfaced. It’s no wonder I am an artist. I can see the end picture before I even start it. I have visions, lots of them. Still do. Every time I say to my husband, I have an idea, he’s like “oh boy” and his blood pressure probably starts to rise. That’s when I always have to say, “It’s just an idea, no need to stress”.
At this point in my journey, that’s when I had my “ah-ha” moment, I have and always had the ability to bring the unseen to life. People I’ve worked with knew it before I knew it. They have told me so. I just wasn’t ready to believe in it.
I can see the bigger picture before anyone else can. That’s why I create and work best with visuals. Because my world (inside my minds eye) is all visual.
This was a huge breakthrough for me.
And so that’s when I began creating my own personal and healing art.
The artist that I am, with my new sense of knowing and connecting with my highest self and the universe, I came up with and feel like I coined the idea “intuitive art”. I feel like that because I searched high and low and couldn’t find much on the subject.
I have collided my two worlds. My two gifts and mashed it up into one.
Truthfully, I believe any artist, visionary, and the creator can call it “intuitive art” as they too must have the same ability as I. How else are they then to know or predict what they want the outcome to be?
I create and work in mediums that best suit my talents and skill sets. I have learned to let go of what people think and broke out a new art form and I use this art form as part of my Reiki healing. It’s what makes me different than all the other Reiki healers. That I know of anyway. I provide them with a visual message from the divine spirit, a message that they needed to hear at the time to help heal them.
Healing and helping others has to be one of the most satisfying things one can do, at least from my perspective.
Giving without any expectations and being of service to another living thing is the greatest and highest achievements of all time. And that is why the next part of my journey is all about helping others.
I started teaching, many things, mostly things that I am learning myself. I once heard that one teaches best what they too are learning. So, I guess that’s what I’ll do and I’ll figure it out one step at a time.
I’ll never stop dreaming and believing in myself and neither should you, for we are all capable of growing and being exactly who we’re supposed to be. Show up to life. Show up for change. Show up and stand up in your highest truth.
I hope you enjoyed reading my transformational journey so far as much as I enjoyed sharing it with you.
I’d love to hear your story, how you’re stepping up to change, with the will to grow. Please do so in the comments below.
*Originally published on the TASSION blog